Jaye’s Journal ~ week 17


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For so many reasons this week has been a nightmare.

I received a letter from the hospital summoning me for another look at my cataracts. This has imposed a deadline on my editing, for after that date, I may not be able to see what I’m doing, depending on when or if they decide to do something this time.

Seriously though, I am getting really fed up with not being able to see properly. Everything is blurred, and print is so small.  And don’t get me started on the headaches!

Having a deadline is one hell of a way to buck my ideas up, that’s for sure.

Just when I was feeling positive about everything and things were moving  along swimmingly, BT decided to upgrade their email site, resulting in the most awful balls up. If this is what passes as ‘better’, I must be a monkey’s uncle!

Not only is it poorly arranged, but the layout sucks, AND it keeps going wrong! I mean, I don’t ask for much, just that things work the way they’re supposed to.

Moving on to what I’m supposed to be doing, the editing of PayBack. Right in the middle of thinking I was doing a brilliant job, I realised that somehow I was out of my depth. This turned into what the hell did I think I was doing, so everything crashed right there!

I am beginning to think my brain has finally decided to be old and past it after all. All without consulting me, I might add. I keep forgetting where I am in the process of editing, and what I’m supposed to be doing. I spread all these chapters on my desk, trying to make sure the plot was running smoothly. I found myself staring at them, with absolutely no clue. My head was empty, and I had never felt so lost in my life.

I don’t understand what is happening, for I usually breeze through editing. Hell, I was an editor long before I became a writer and love doing it. The chance to polish your story until it shines is a glorious part of writing, and here I was, unable to organise a piss up in a brewery.

Editing, as you know, is a series of systematically checking everything. You must be methodical and do things in the right order, something I seemed to have forgotten how to do.

For the first time in my writing career, I might need an independent edit…  Something I never thought I would ever say…

And if all of this wasn’t bad enough, I have eaten all the chocolate!

watermark xjj



14 thoughts on “Jaye’s Journal ~ week 17

  1. None of us are in the Spring of our Chickenhood, so maybe look at the editing thing as a much better use of your time. As for the rest, get yourself outside for a while, go for a walk, or a long train trip, something to clear the cobwebs away.

    Do something away from the MS for a few days, a week even … and don’t look at it during that time. What you’re going through is normal when it’s an undertaking as complex as this story arc is. (and yes, I know I’m only going on what you’ve written about here on your blog) It’s stressful all on its own without the additional stress of your eyesight.

    So, set it aside, go do something, ELSEWHERE, to pamper yourself … I promise you the Universe will not end if you do … and if it does, editing will be the least of your worries. 🙂

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    • Brilliant advice, Widders, but I won’t go until I have sorted out the mess I have made! It is already looking better, as I have tackled it one step at a time and the brain has cooperated!
      My birthday is next week, and I know the family are secretly planning to take me somewhere. (whether they bring me back is another story!)

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  2. The chocolate issue is serious…..but I imagine anyone who is worried about their sight would have a wobbly and be thrown a little off course. Accept it and you’ll cruise and conquer. Wishing you the best outcome. xx

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  3. Sounds like you’re under a lot of stress due to your eye issues. Editing will probably smooth out once you’re past this. That being said, there’s nothing wrong with an independent edit, which could free you up to concentrate on everything else:)

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  4. Another set of eyes is always a good idea anyway. We get too close and personal with our stories. On the subject of another set of eyes, everyone who has had a cataract operation has been so glad they did it. Keep smiling and get more chocolate!! xo

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